on Joy

When Wayne and I told my dad we were getting married, he told us he wished us Joy in our marriage. This is not the same as happiness. Happiness is ephemereal, but joy is lasting and long - it goes through sadness and pain, anxiety and surprises. Today I think I've come to understand this. This morning after leaving Subway, where Wayne bought me lunch, I felt a great sense of joy. My stomach is still in knots over what the doctor will say tomorrow, and I'm feeling some stress over the wedding, and I'm annoyed about the laundry that needs doing, and I swear one day I will kill the puppy (3/4 Rotty, 1/4 lab, and waaay too much energy), but I still felt a sense of well-being that all would be well.

I think this must be what my dad was talking about. It helped me get through several chores today - like finding out that I did not choose to get cancer coverage, but ce la vie... I did find out this oncologist will be covered by my new insurance (which switches just so conveniently on July 1).

Meanwhile, in other life news, I painted my nails today - rather disastrously! But this is precisely why I'm going to have a professional do my nails for the wedding!

And now I'm working on the bluegrass dinner music playlist - I thought that was the best way to work the roots into the wedding, without expecting people to dance to too many bluegrass songs (and I also figure the motor city DJ will not have a large selection of bluegrass... might just be my southern prejudice...) But doing the playlist on my dad's comptuer, means fixing his mistakes and actually importing the songs onto his new comptuer from the old one - sometimes one by one *groans*

Anyway... Seek Joy... I just wanted to post this so I didn't forget tomorrow.