I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm playing a ridiculous video game with my husband, and I don't play games or really get that invested in them, and he's convinced me to do the PVP... and in a few short chat messages, the other players, who are probably 12 year old boys had reduced me to tears. These are probably stupid kids, the kind that I can easily reduce to little blubbering boys with a look and a few words... and I feel like the idiot. I was crying so much I couldn't hardly click the freaking mouse. That's not normal. I don't know what's wrong with me - and I feel all crappy and shaky now and on the verge of tears. I managed to hold it together and not log off in the middle of the game, but it totally ruined what was a very good mood. Wayne even says I did very well for my first game, and I don't feel I did that bad.
Even as I was crying, I felt the craziness of the moment. The sheer absurdity that complete strangers saying a couple stupid things would upset me! I endure middle school hatred daily, as I force them to do things for their own good, and it doesn't faze me. I don't care that much about games, I knew it was my first game, not to expect much... so why was I crying? I can't have something like that happen to me during school. Even twenty, thirty minutes later now I feel cold. I can look objectively at myself and the event and think how stupid... but I can't make my emotions match my logical mind.
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