Lists

Went to see Les Miserables. It was wonderful. Would go to see it again.

I've started making lists in my head. I want to live and fight this and grow old with my husband. I want to be his forever. But I also know my luck has not been good, and the 5 year survival rates are not good... so I've done what I always do when faced with a difficult task... started lists. Lists of things I need to do.

Need to make a will
Need to get the house title in both names
Need to make living will
Need to get medical power of attorney set up
Need to get stuff set up with the businesses so if something happens, my husband can continue with his work
Need to list all the passwords for credit cards, etc so he can pay the bills

Need to fight this
Need to work out regularly, especially with weights, to help combat osteoporosis
Need to get my daily calcium
Need to take my medicine
Need to take a vitamin
Need to find something to do for the five hours I'm getting pumped with poison
Need to get my hair cut (well, shaved off)
Need to get a wig
Need to figure out how I'm going to teach and work in the midst of all this
Need to contact the HR person to figure out sick leave
Need to let principal know I still need a sub

Need to find a counselor
Need to stop crying
Need to be strong
Need to stop getting upset with people
Need to enjoy every minute I have left, if it's six months or sixty years...

Need to say I love you to those that count as often as possible

Want to get better at playing my violin
Want to see Europe again - and the mountains and hills of the Black Forest
Want to see the west coast
Want to see the temperate rain forest and giant redwood trees
Want to take husband to Tangier Island
Want to go back to Prince Edward Island
Want to see Boston and Philadelphia and the historical sites
Want to trust in God again... want to believe in God again
Want to raise a child
Want to go to a really fancy event again, and wear a formal gown
Want my husband's business to take off, so I don't have to worry about him financially
Want to make a difference in my students' lives
Want to be remembered for something good
Never want to hear the word cancer again